CNN iReport

Well, my 1st born, Justin, when he was born, my very first question to the doctor was, is he ok?  Is he healthy....they told me more than once, you have a healthy baby boy, apgars 9/9.  I was soooo relieved, happy, ......then sometime after 8 mos. I started to notice little by little at the wellness visits to his pediatrician that Justin wasn't doing what most kids were doing.  He started off babbling, then stopped.  Didn't talk.  Drooled Excessively even after a year 1/2......didn't play appropriately with toys; had horrible meltdowns as if in pain; so many things, yet, I'd bring it up to the doctor and in the beginning I was being told, "you know, every child develops differently, give it some time"....low and behold at 2 years old he was diagnosed with Autism, Sensory Integration Disorder, Severe Apraxia, had Gastrointestinal & Feeding problems, still does.  To say that we were crushed is an understatement.  I was sad, angry, depressed, went for a 2nd opinion, then a 3rd.  When I did finally accept it, I still internally beat myself up.  I wondered, did I do something, did I eat something, every stupid way of internally blaming yourself.  NO answers to my many questions, pure frustration and plane self guilt.  I thought, something is wrong with me, I waited too long to have kids?  (I was 32); Then one day a doctor mentioned to me something brief about Biomedical Research and I jumped on it quickly.  I researched, read, studied all I could.  There was so much data, many parents witness to their child's recovery from Autism, researchers, etc.  There is only one problem.  It seems to be for the rich.  I know it doesn't sound ethical.  But in this day and age most of us are trying to make ends meet.  Now I'm faced with all of this hope and financially feel held back.  That is when I had this crazy idea to raise the funds which is what I'm trying to do in order to get my son Biomedical & HBOT Treatments.  For video and images of my Justin, please visit:

http://justinsrecoverywish.blogspot.com/

I have to do something and applying for grants, trying to raise the funds via donations is my new found hope.  That is our story.